You know what? I love being me. I love what I am. I love what I’ve become over the years. I’m good at what I love to do. No, I’m not the best, nor am I one of the greats, but I am still good at what I do. And no one can be me. I am unique. So there. This is the last day of 2008, but you know what, I don’t even notice the new year passing except by the fact of everyone wishing me a happy new year, and the presence of Apple Cider bottles in my fridge.

My calfs are now hairless as well. Slowly but surely, I am turning my body hairless, and it is great. Now, why did I do this you may ask? I know some of you while reading this are gasping, and being like, “Why the heck did you do that!?!” I’ll tell you why I got rid of the hair on my legs. I’m an acrobalancer is why. Yes, I know, plenty of people do acrobalance and they are hairy, but that isn’t my purpose. I did it, cause when Connor and I are doing stuff, or anyone for that matter, and they brace against my legs it pulls the hairs on my legs and I’ve come close to dropping people cause the pain is intense and sharp and it hurts. You know the pain of someone pulling out one single hair on your head, and they keep pricking them off, now imagine that pain, but spread over and area, and not stopping. That is the equvalent of the pain that I feel when I base for acrobalance. I removed the hair on my legs to make it nicer on myself when I do acrobalance.

Now, a bonus to this, is the fact, that I like how it looks. To me, for my personal opinion. I think I look better when I am hairless. I would like to have a hairless body. It is aesthically pleasing to me. For my partner, I don’t care, it is her decision. If she has hair on her legs and arms, that is ok. I prefer my own body to be hairless. It is me! No one else who I care about for hair. It is my choice to remove my own hair, and I have no preference either way for anyone else! I did this for practicality. No other reason, so don’t get on my case if you please. Yes, I know what people will think, but you know what. I have a reason for it, it isn’t merely because I want it. It has a practical use.

So, to start the new year, I am hairless on my arms and calfs. I shaved my neck as well. My face is still fuzzy. I am rather proud of my sideburns, chin hairs, and fuzzy catapillar running across my upper lip. I feel good about myself. And as this year ends, I lay down some burdens as well.

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I lay down my feelings for people. May they rest in peace. No longer shall these people torment me because I don’t know of any past with them. Ashlynn, Sarah, and Lizzy. You all did a significant amount of damage to me this year. I lay my feelings for you all to rest. All of you except Sarah, earned poems in your stead, to record the pain or worry you caused me. Know this. I don’t want to go back to any of you. As I stand here, I look to the future and what it may bring. You all did something to me that I will not forgot. I shall remember the lessons I took from you.

Ashlynn: You taught me not to trust people you don’t know. And you taught me not to bestow any emotion into a relationship that isn’t there. Seeing someone once, is not enough. I learned not to trust people, and always question their motives and why they hang out with certain people. You taught me to be wary of the other guys that come around the person I am interested in, for the guy may rob me of the person I want. Also, I learned from you, that people should speak up and explain themselves if they have anything to say. I shall ask people’s opinion and to have them explain them because of you.

Sarah: Oh, you, you love bipolar. That is right. You taught me, not to put store in anyone’s words or what they say, but to let time show what they really want. You concreted in me how you truely never know someone and you barely hit the tip of the iceburg in three months. No matter how blunt and straight foreward I am, you taught me that I needed to be patient if I ever wanted to learn the truth about someone else.

Lizzy: -sighs- You taught me one of the hardest lessons of all. Not to allow anyone inside me so soon and so fast, no matter how honest they may seem. Only let someone in with time. You also taught me, that even if I am patient and willing to take the time to learn someone, the other person, might not be willing to take the time with me. You taught me not to trust the friendliest of people’s with my thoughts and feelings of the moment, because they will spread them around like wildfire and slightly distort them. You also made me realize, that my actions and feelings are of little consequence to other people, till they bother to take the time to understand them, or after having them explained, that I need to not think that they did truely understand, or cared enough to take that into account. Of the three, you are the one, I think taught me the most and affected me the greatest. I don’t begrude what you did to me. I have forgiven the hurts I took. For most of them were merely my own fault for not sheilding myself.

Overall, I learned that people are not to be trusted till they prove themselves many times and over a lot of time. You can be friendly with many people, but the people you trust are the people who are there for you and will help you and listen. Even if you may trust them, don’t, for you never know who will turn around to rip you open. Trust, is a very important thing, don’t give it up easily, give it out sparingly and with a good gamble, for it is always a chance you take when you hand out trust. May anyone who read this blog, learn something, or take away some wisdom about life. For, I write many things in my blog and not just this entry. I will continue to write my emotions, thoughts, and feelings in this blog in the hope that I or any one else may look back on it learn a bit more about me, where I came from, who I am today, and take away some profound wisdom of life. For in the old times how did we learn? By the stories that were passed down to us by others. Sometimes the stories were fresh, other times they were old.

May the New Year beging, and bring you all life with it’s sadness and joys. May God bless you and teach you. Hopefully I shall see you in the next life, or even tomorrow.

And here we go…